Was doing some googleing and came across this thread which is very ironic as it is something i am looking at myself.
I live in UK so firearms are out, pills are out as i have a major issue of doing something and half way through changing my mind, and i'm not a lover of pain so cutting throat or jumping of tall building is out, i don't own a car so no fumes.
So from my POV trains are the only real option, commuter trains are to slow but i do like them as the tend to be less streamlind and the impact would be more effective i think but slower speeds concern me, so looking at some of these "bullet" sytle trains that go at 130-140mph, trouble is i live in London and having done several scouting out runs already security is a major issue, to many high fences etc i know of one place here
https://goo.gl/maps/oWFmsK24TtuPyx1q8 where you can walk across the track with no issues but trains are slow, so it is something where i am going to have to go further out of london where faster trains will have less security maybe just chicken wire fence etc.
As to why i'm doing it well that i don't need to go into here but why trains well it's the only real option
I can see open to me, i would love to find another way out but i just can't think of one, normally i am not a selfish person in fact far from it but i'm fully aware of what i'm doing and i know full well this is an increadabilly selfish act to undertake, I'm not worried about passengers as i presume there will not be much to see being hit head on at the best part of 150mph, but it's the driver that i feel for i know full well this can end some people carrerers and destroy their lives, i have given it a huge amount of thought and the only thing i can do is make sure i explain myself to him or her in the most detail i can as to why i took this route and explain that they have done me a huge favour, so hopefully i can get rid of soe of their guilt, to be honest i doubt it will help them much but i will do my level best to make surre they know they have done me a huge favour, letters will be in my rucksack and both laminated and sealed in airtight plastic wallet of some kind so the blood will not affect the paperwork a copy will also be sent to local coroners office as well as ASLEF, i do want him or her to be able to go back to work but i fully understand this may not happen, this will be the first time in some 40 years where i have put myself first, it's not something i am proud of but it's something i have no option but to do, and trains
seem the best way to get the results i want/need, i have not worked out if i will just bend over in front of the train and hit it head on or lay across the tracks and chop my own head off, it didn't help reading the other day that when folks get decapitated the are still aware of what is going on for some time, need more thought on that one.
None of the above is a joke and it's NOT a cry for help, i have had some help over the years and i think i'm past any more help, save the nhs some money and put it into someone who can be saved.
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