I feel a huge rambling post from me on this one is due, off to work in a minute.
Baisically my rant will say that what's done is done, you now have the risk of her finding out and it'll eat at you because you'll feel guilty, but trust in chris, that feeling is a million times better than the one you get when you tell her and she bins you.
Honesty is NOT the best policy.
Damn, looks like i'm getting into this now and i really have to go.............
Long story short, i had a perfect relationship, it was amazing, we were engaged, her family took me in as one of their own entirely, she took my daughter on as her ow, every part of our relationship was superb. Then i got a new job, she finished uni and got a job and things between us went from awsome to terrible in about two months flat.
I started staying at my dads instead of living with her etc, etc, etc and eventually we split up
I was a mess, there was a girl at work who was very, very nice to me and one lunch in the pub i kissed her.
That fling only lasted a week before i realised that i was a total mess and a new relationship was a very bad idea.
Another week passed and me and the ex were both regretting the split, we got together, talked and decided to give it another bash.
Here's the bit that's ruined my life...................
I say, "it's great that we're getting back together, i love you and i want our relationship to be all that it was (insert blah, blah, blah)....... so i want to be honest with you. During our couple of weeks apart i kissed someone else".
She could never come to terms with this, we got together, fought, and again split up. I told her that i wanted it to work but i wasnt sure if it could, if she'd try then i'd try, otherwise we should leave it. She tells me "It can't work anymore, i want someone else"!!
After a couple more weeks of being split up and me being a drunken mess and having sleepless nights thiking that she was in bed with someone else i ended up sleeping with the girl i had kissed before. I call the ex the next day in the biggest state so far and tell her i know she's been with someone else, well now so have i but it's made me realise how much i love her and will work at it. She says she loves and misses me too, she wanted to try again but she hasn't been with anyone else because she just couldn't do it. She doesn't understand how i could and we could never be together now.
Now i'm skint, lonely and still very, very much in love with her. She's minted, surrounded by people who love her including a rich new boyfriend and i do know that she still loves me but simply because of the fantastic relationship that we shared for four years, not because she wants me anymore.
The point to all of that is not "Ahhhhh, poor Chris" (although reding it back it does sound that way
) the point is, each time i ruined my chance at genuine happyness by being honest.
If you don't tell she MIGHT find out, if you do tell she will KNOW. It's done, it doesn't make what you did any better by telling her, live with it yourself because she might not be able too.
Chris