I mean living, just somtimes I think why, then I think but this is life, it has its bad points and its good points. Somtimes I have just felt like walking out on my job. I once came close to just giving up, my niece was in intensive care on they night she way born, trying to get a taxi to the hospital from town (from celebrating her birth) I could of killed a few people, even a woman. Every had the feeling you want to bash someones skull in to pieces. Aint life brilliant.