I took my CBT so now I am legally able to ride up to a 125cc motorbike. I'd never before been on a motorbike. I found the whole day very, very nerve racking. The instructor kept telling me to calm down but it seemed to me like a very dangerous machine that I wasn't fully in control of. And a pretty quick way to get myself killed as I'd imagine if I take it out, I'll sit at a give-way, accidentally release the clutch or something and fly into the traffic. Going 50mph on a motorbike when you don't REALLY know what you're doing is just no fun at all. It was just not my bag on the day -- I just kept thinking 'If I come off, I'm going to really, seriously, properly hurt myself'. The others on the course loved riding immediately despite having little control (which I don't really understand!). I got home after telling my wife I'd passed on the phone (but not that I almost had 'special brown time' when riding it!) -- and she's - like 'SURPRISE' -- and there's a spanking new motorbike sitting on my driveway as an 'early christmas pressie'. Helmet. Clothes. She's spent £2500 on it all. Now she keeps on asking me if I don't like the colour and what 'make' should she have bought and trying to get me to take it for a spin because I haven't even sat on the thing. I don't want to tell her the whole of the day learning to ride scared the living NO SWEARING out of me and I'm actually kind of scared of the thing on my driveway. Any suggestions? I phoned the garage about taking it back and they sucked their teeth and said words like 'It's second hand now - we'll give you a grand for it' and 'We won't take a return on any of the clothing'. If I actually pluck up the courage to go out on it do you think my confidence will actually pick up? Any bikers out there experienced anything like this? What would you do?