She never came home from her mums and shes told me shes not going to either. My world has ended. Now im rattling round the house crying non stop. She and my kids were my entire life, they were all that i lived for. Everything i did was for her and my little girls. I just want them back. Im not perfect by any means and ive got my annoying habits the same as she has but i never thought this would happen again. Its the kids i miss the most even theyre always fighting and crying. And im goinjg to miss out on her pregnancy so im going to feel alienated from the newborn. I wont even get a say in its name. I just want to scream at the top of my voice and then have the ground to swallow me up. Shes left me with huge debts and im going have to return the items we had on credit so basically ive got nothing. Life sucks. Ive not got many friends either so i reslly am alone. I feel like shes ripped my heart out and stamped on it. And i thought she loved me.