Soldato
I've been being messed around by a girl for far too long. Roughly a year now of "Oh I do, oh I don't".
Several times recently I've said "this is it", only for my resistence to crumble as she convinced me I was being stupid, and it was my fault.
At the end of the day, I was miserable. Whether it's my own fault or not, I'm better off not being miserable. Not for a case of one-itis that I have (had?).
So tonight I made my final stand. I won't have been able to see her until Christmas anyway, so I've done it through email. Not ideal, but I am not a strong person over this matter, and I know I love her too much to make a real stand for this if I hear her voice.
But there's the back story. Unfortunately, I now feel worse than ever. I'm not proud of a couple of things I've said to her, but they needed to be said. So now I need to be picked up. Jokes, something funny, something uplifting, something happy, I don't care. Motivation to not fall back into old habits and just let her suck me back in again just to knock me down. I know you're all totally hilarious people, everyone on the interweb is right? So apply it!
Several times recently I've said "this is it", only for my resistence to crumble as she convinced me I was being stupid, and it was my fault.
At the end of the day, I was miserable. Whether it's my own fault or not, I'm better off not being miserable. Not for a case of one-itis that I have (had?).
So tonight I made my final stand. I won't have been able to see her until Christmas anyway, so I've done it through email. Not ideal, but I am not a strong person over this matter, and I know I love her too much to make a real stand for this if I hear her voice.
But there's the back story. Unfortunately, I now feel worse than ever. I'm not proud of a couple of things I've said to her, but they needed to be said. So now I need to be picked up. Jokes, something funny, something uplifting, something happy, I don't care. Motivation to not fall back into old habits and just let her suck me back in again just to knock me down. I know you're all totally hilarious people, everyone on the interweb is right? So apply it!